If there is one thing we can predict about this life, it is its unpredictability. It was only last week that from my home office window, I looked out and admired the rigid regime of my healthy 85 year old father, as he walked up and down the driveway.
Yesterday, he got diagnosed with brain hemorrhage. With the Christmas season being just around the corner, I had it all chalked out. A solid plan for everything that had to be done and finished before December 15, so we could all be fully present for the holidays.
With one medical appointment that led to an emergency room then to a hospital and now the unknown things are, well, a little different. Is this sad? Yes, at so many levels it is. To see someone you love, someone who gave you life, nurtured and guided you to the best of their ability and was determined to be physically independent become helpless and bedridden overnight, is painful. And to see my mother who’s face has forever resonated strength and grit seem defeated, is painful.
But really, was this moment and this pain so unpredictable? Was I so naive to think that this day would never come? No, I was just hopeful it wouldn’t come so soon.
Today as everything came to a stand still I had a heart to heart with my soul. We are best friends you see, my soul and I. With its profound wisdom and unwavering strength it always seems to guide me in the right direction. Like a loyal friend it uplifts and empowers me to seek and find the real beauty of life as it unfolds before my eyes.
Today was no different. Together we acknowledged and cherished all that truly touched us both to the very core. Tears rolled down my eyes as I remembered the compassion of the strangers; efficiency of the medical system; strength of my soulmate; hugs and messages from my children; the family coming together; the phone calls across the seas; humour and stories that lightened the mood; peace on my distraught father’s face as I gently touched his forehead. This was life unfolding in its purest essence.
Yes, we may think life is laughter, happiness and all else we seek but truly life is about stealing moments from its ups and downs to hold in our hearts forever and always.
With Love and gratitude,
Devinder 💖
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